Quite soon after I became a Christian, a very wise woman took all the woman from our group aside and told us something very important. She drew two lines on a piece of butcher paper, they looked very much like the ones above.
The blue line represented a man's mood as dictated by hormones, fairly steady, so a lot of reactions he has to things can be fairly steady too. The pink lines, however, represent a woman's mood changes over a monthly period. She explained that this can mean that at the right time of the month, all is great, but during the dips and lows, living out our faith can seem harder.
This is a challenge for women, as some of us can be very "intuitive" in following God - recognising any weaknesses can help us to lean on God in the lows rather than be bewildered by the powerful hormones that affect our moods, our concentration, and our faith.
Recently I became convinced that I was pregnant. Considering that I have not been clucky throughout my adult life, I got quite taken with the idea. I started praying for whoever this baby might be, and was frankly crushed when it became clear that I wasn't pregnant.
During this last week I cruised baby and pregnancy websites, read articles and counted days and weeks. There are a whole swag of websites, calculators, forums, communitites and the like out there - it opened my eyes to how obsessive this whole subject can be.
So as well as follow the advice to take folate, exercise, get my life in order etc in preparation for (hopefully) becoming pregnant, my goal is to become a godly mother and work out my sdalvation with fear and trembling. I want to be aware of how hormones effect the way I respond to God. I want to aim to worship and approach Him at all times, rather than on the up days...