the Holy Ghost over the bent World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings. G.M.Hopkins
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Reflections upon last year
1. My job is always to be a Christian in whatever circumstances I am in.
My job is largely irrelevant - but on the micro level - important to do well and hopefully enjoy. I don't mean that all Christians should think like this about their work - I just happen to have a secular job at the mo' but my heart is in Tasmanian christian work - church/para church. A lot of other Christians I know seem to be able to see their secular job in the scheme of things but I can't wait to be a mum and support my husband in full-time ministry.
2. I have low energy
Kind of tied up with point one, I find it hard to juggle work, home life, church, christian friends, non-christian friends, hobbies and relaxation as I need a fair bit of sleep and processing time - as well as "flake out" time.
This new year is the year of "no" and joy. I love all my friends and they have been sadly neglected due to my joining a few church "teams" and ministries that I hoped would be more self-sustaining. Letting them go is necessary to concentrate on the more long term "ministry" of loving my friends from different places and settings.
3. I love singing and developing my musical skills
I need to keep doing this as I enjoy it and I see God using the opportunities I take to develop my musical ability. I have neglected this due to exhaustion and busy-ness. Not taking on so much this year will hopefully give me time to get some better voice skills to avoid strain and allow me to develop the songs I have been writing.
4. Things can be "One-off"
In other words I don't need a contract or long term commitment to meet and encourage someone, do a particular service at church or even attend church. This is not a rule of thumb, its just something I need to accept this year - as someone who get tired easily and tends to over commit to things. As this year will be broken up by family reunions, international travel - supporting my husband complete his theological degree -it seems nonsensical to commit to something for the full year - but it won't prevent me from being there when needed.
5. Its okay to pull out
I am still struggling with this as there are a few things that could "fly on their own" if I hang in there a little longer, but others will never leave the nest - now is not the time to nurture something that I probably need to separate from when we move states and start new ministries and initiatives in the next twelve months (God willing).